Monday, April 25, 2016

Why I Create

"Creativity feeds off conflict. It comes from being sensitive and from being hurt. From being let down and from devouring yourself. I use myself as fuel." - Yannis Philippakis

Being creative isn't all about making pretty things or cool stuff. Sometimes it's much sadder than that. I grew up as an only child and never had that many friends. In fact, every time I made a close friend in elementary school, they move away the next year. My creativity is born out of pure loneliness and not feeling good enough about myself. That is my driving force. I don't have anyone, but I got an imagination and a disembodied friend called music.

"Sadness is a blessing. Sadness is a curse" - Lykke Li

I often feel misunderstood and that alienates me even more from the world. I wished I have a constant flow of friends, but at the same time all those experiences of doing everything alone gave me a different perspective in life. I don't think I would be the same person if I didn't have those specific experiences. From my outer appearance, I seem like a happy person and I'm generally am, but there are many moments I come home and these silent cries would come out. The sadness inside me forces me at times to create something; something dark, something bright, or something beautiful. As a result, it drowns out my own insecurities.

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Thursday, April 21, 2016

New Channel

After a few years of wanting to start a Youtube Channel. I finally uploaded my first post!

If you want to learn about how to make a simple book for gifts and such, please take a look!